Soul Pain

Pain of the soul, a phrase I am using to convey the meaning of the Greek -'Psyxiki Odyni'. How can I translate this from Greek? Maybe the closest semantic equivalent would be 'heartbreak'. Direct translation would translate as 'psychological pain', which does not sound quite right in English.

In my humble opinion, Pain of the Soul plagues us from the moment of our very conception. It follows us throughout childhood and meanders it's way in and out of our lives until the minute of our death. It is impossible to be a human being without experiencing some form of heartbreak at some point in your life. 

When I talk about heartbreak, I mean heartbreak not only caused by romantic afflictions amongst the opposite sex, but also the pain which we experience deep within the core of our being. One's heart becomes bruised, and there in conflict deep within. No matter how much we wish things were different, we cannot control our heart, and protect it from being in pain.

Some people are fooled into thinking they can protect themselves from this, and do their best to avoid situations which may cause this phenomenon to arise. For example, a woman scorned will shy away from admirers, lest she falls in love again and becomes hurt,  student will not continue their studies because they have been lead to believe they are silly, a child will not make friends because he has been bullied. This is the biggest farce of them all, because however much we avoid loving, in the end, as I said before , the heart is a mystery and we cannot know how it works. You can avoid loving for your whole life, and love will come and find you. Avoiding it will not prevent it happening, it will only dig your hole deeper. The more you avoid heartbreak because you are afraid of it's derivatives (rejection, failure, mockery, dissappointment)  the harder it becomes when you do find it, because believe me , you will. 

To avoid being dissppointed, rejected, mocked, and fail you allow fear to enter your soul and do not live. You do a good job at deadening your soul! You create more work for yourself! That is why every time we fear, we build a sturdy wall against ourselves and happiness, for if you do not love, you cannot be happy. If you avoid love, in order to avoid heartbreak, you live in the dark and do not enter the light. One day the light will find it's way into your home through some knook or cranny, through some crack in the wall, eventhough you have closed the curtains. And when that light comes you will not be used to it, and it will be so strong and unbearable it might blind you. Just like somebody who has lived in a room with no light for their whole lives and suddenly goes outside- the light is too strong for their eyes and they can't even see properly. 

Take your sunglasses off, you do not need them, your eyes are capable of avoiding the harmful rays. Trust yourself.